I decided to keep this journal, since I wish to show in real time how extraordinary feats are achieved through ordinary habits and actions, since most of us wrongly assume that just one in thousand people succeed in fulfilling one’s dream because of one’s special talent and favorable circumstances.
“If you have great talents, industry will improve them; if you have but moderate abilities, industry will supply their deficiency. Nothing is denied to well- directed labour: nothing is to be obtained without it.”- Joshua Reynold,
I grew up troubled by my cultural eclecticism. My epidemic inquisitiveness and weird thought process provide me the natural ability of acknowledging the interconnections between the information that I learned by teachers, relatives, books, television…Though, putting together a jigsaw puzzle takes some time and particularly in school this phlegmatic attitude of the mind can be at once misunderstood as mental retardation, while after some time it’s read as symptomatic of genius. It’s what happened to me since the first grade – when I delayed in learning to write, because I refused to start writing like a child. Nevertheless, both the interpretations in my case are wrong.
I’ve no special talent in any field. I’m only a passionate and sensitive woman, who is attempting to fix many faults in her life and to whom often may happen to feel inadequate in front of the challenges to tackle with the aim of fulfilling this dream. But at the end who cares. If not immediately, I’ll learn with time what I can’t do, yet.
I don’t absolutely fit that image of the smart-thinking ans swift-decision-making entrepreneur. whose successful story is chosen to be portrayed on the screen. Most of the time to me doing this job is tiresome and put myself in front of my vulnerability, that is “the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change.”(Brené Brown at TED2012). Everyday, I choose to deploy my efforts and my time in working on this idea, being aware that I’m risking everything else to have this chance of succeeding, because the only way to get what I want is being consistent and that means I need time and patience.
I know how much out of touch with our fast-paced reality may sound this statement, but I guess that none of us can’t force things to speed up. There is a right time for anything to happen. At least this is how it works in the Aquaponics field, having to deal with living beings. However, I’m noticing the signs of a turnaround in this direction even in the business world, where the trend overall among the gig economy generation is seeking for new balances to combine tradition with innovation – such as e.g. Made in Italy handicraft sold on international, online platforms or the many young Americans, who’re leaving desk jobs to farm.
“Like a bee in a flower bed, the human brain naturally flits from one thought to the next. In the high-speed workplace, where data and headlines come thick and fast, we are all under pressure to think quickly. Reaction, rather than reflection, is the order of the day. To make the most of our time, and to avoid boredom, we fill up every spare moment with mental stimulation…Keeping the mind active makes poor use of our most precious resource. True, the brain can work wonders in high gear. But it will do so much more if given the chance to slow down from time to time. Shifting the mind into lower gear can bring better health, inner calm, enhanced concentration and the ability to think more creatively.”
I’m 25 years and for all this time I strenuously fought against looseness of my creativity process. Indeed, I’m really too slow for my liking in figuring out the next step to do. I’ve like just a blurry idea, that looks like easy to convert into an action and nonetheless I can’t do anything to make it true. Many times I attempted to force this process and it’s always ended in messing up my to-do list, delaying even more my work. I’ve always assumed that this characteristic of mine was incompatible with the abruptness, usually attributed to the stereotype of the American self-made man. I don’t know how much this image could have affected even your perception of who fits the role, but I’ve had to wait for dismantling it before having the courage of committing myself in this feat.
I know several people with the same limiting belief, since we’re used “to engineer staying small” (Brené Brown at TED2012) and we deny this truth to ourselves, hiding behind adverse circumstances and the talents of people much more skilled than us. We lock our potential instead of boosting it to not face: critics, failures, mistakes, denigration, loneliness, expectations, external pressures, responsibility…I’m experiencing these fears right now, putting myself and my vulnerability in what I’m writing down to share with you all my first steps out of my comfort zone, with the aim of showing that if I’ll fulfill this dream despite any external and inner factor, anyone can do the same at one’s own time.
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